Its funny how time passes by so quickly. I would have never thought that I'd be here in my final year of High School this fast. Its scary no doubt,but I'm overwhelmed with excitement as well.
Ever since I started making friends with older people I was so sure about wanting to leave high school,but now that its my last year I realize how much I wasted most of my time trying to hurry through my school years that I never really got to enjoy it. As for that,I'm going to enjoy my last year as much as I can. And I think anybody who is in my position should too.
Having older friends thought me how school years are actually pretty decent compared to college life. I'm always hearing them complain about how stressed out they are about assignments and how they don't know what the fuck they're doing. And each and every one of them never fail to remind me how I should enjoy my school days. I use to deny it,but now that I'm one step closer to leaving I actually do agree with them.
Its definitely a crucial year for me as I've got a big examination in November,I've got to make my mind up about where I want to further my studies and what I want to do. Not to mention I'm getting my license done *wheeee*. So many things to be done this year I feel as if time is so limited.
I know its only the beginning of the year,but I already feel stressed out. Anyhow,I'd just like to wish everybody who is sitting for SPM this year the best of luck! I'll be on hiatus till after everything is done. Have a good year,and take care. x
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Friday, November 11, 2011
Insignificant Other
Didn't think I'd be saying this any time soon but here I am,announcing that I've finally after six long months let you go. And It feels so good. You missed out.
This is the greatest feeling. To those of you who are going through a tough time with love,I know how you feel. I really do,I'm not going to advice you. But when the time comes and you've finally moved on cherish that moment. Its a wonderful feeling to know you made it out in one piece. And now you can make room for greater things in life.
This is the greatest feeling. To those of you who are going through a tough time with love,I know how you feel. I really do,I'm not going to advice you. But when the time comes and you've finally moved on cherish that moment. Its a wonderful feeling to know you made it out in one piece. And now you can make room for greater things in life.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
And Counting
I've been single for two years now. Its been a really long journey and I'm pretty sure a lot of you have gone through longer periods of singularity. And I've learnt a lot along the way.
Being single isn't a bad thing,at all. I've learnt that I can be happy doing things for myself,it took some time adjusting but I did. The only set back about being single is those random days where you just miss everything about being in a relationship.
I usually got out alone,I find it easier to go through my day alone. Being the third wheel is never fun. The only time I get sucked into situations like that is whenever I'm out with my Brother and his girlfriend. Which isn't that bad,as to appose going out with your friends who are in relationships. They always seem to have this "I'm Rubbing it in your Face" Vibe.
Late nights are the worse,all I ever do is listen to music that reminds me of him. Which gets me trailing off into a deep thought. Its been happening a lot.
And of course there are Holidays which make some of us feel pretty fucked. For example Valentines or maybe New Years. Thou that doesn't really bother me much. I actually walk around alone pretty proudly. Yeah I'm sort of a loner.
I suppose those are the cons of being single. But it doesn't all have to be that way. I mean being single is fun,you can do whatever you want without worrying about much.
You get to spend more money on food for yourself. I mean come on? Thats just already so awesome. I love food,so thats like a plus plus for me.
You get to mingle with a lot of people,I'm not talking about one night flings thou. Although it can be fun to some people. But no judgement here. After all you're single. So by mingling I mean I could meet more people without being restricted to one or perhaps to most creating some sort of jealousy rivalry. Some guys are just TOO over protective,its sickening.
I don't intend on being in a relationship anytime soon,I'm enjoying myself at the moment. But you can't control feelings so when it happens I'll just go with the flux and flow of things. I mean who knows maybe I'll get lucky again. After what happened thou I'm definitely more restricted with who I actually let into my life,and I suppose thats a good thing. I've learnt my lesson.
Since the long term summer holidays are here I can't wait to start traveling! I'm wander-lusting alot at the moment.
Being single isn't a bad thing,at all. I've learnt that I can be happy doing things for myself,it took some time adjusting but I did. The only set back about being single is those random days where you just miss everything about being in a relationship.
I usually got out alone,I find it easier to go through my day alone. Being the third wheel is never fun. The only time I get sucked into situations like that is whenever I'm out with my Brother and his girlfriend. Which isn't that bad,as to appose going out with your friends who are in relationships. They always seem to have this "I'm Rubbing it in your Face" Vibe.
Late nights are the worse,all I ever do is listen to music that reminds me of him. Which gets me trailing off into a deep thought. Its been happening a lot.
And of course there are Holidays which make some of us feel pretty fucked. For example Valentines or maybe New Years. Thou that doesn't really bother me much. I actually walk around alone pretty proudly. Yeah I'm sort of a loner.
I suppose those are the cons of being single. But it doesn't all have to be that way. I mean being single is fun,you can do whatever you want without worrying about much.
You get to spend more money on food for yourself. I mean come on? Thats just already so awesome. I love food,so thats like a plus plus for me.
You get to mingle with a lot of people,I'm not talking about one night flings thou. Although it can be fun to some people. But no judgement here. After all you're single. So by mingling I mean I could meet more people without being restricted to one or perhaps to most creating some sort of jealousy rivalry. Some guys are just TOO over protective,its sickening.
I don't intend on being in a relationship anytime soon,I'm enjoying myself at the moment. But you can't control feelings so when it happens I'll just go with the flux and flow of things. I mean who knows maybe I'll get lucky again. After what happened thou I'm definitely more restricted with who I actually let into my life,and I suppose thats a good thing. I've learnt my lesson.
Since the long term summer holidays are here I can't wait to start traveling! I'm wander-lusting alot at the moment.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Simple Question
I'd like an opinion from you Guys.
If a girl admits to you just how much you mean to her,and that you're all she thinks about every night before she falls asleep. That everything she does reminds her of you. Every song she listens to makes her smile with the thought of you in mind. And that she's been waiting six months for you to actually notice her.
Even though she knows you're way out of her league,and she knows you'll probably never feel the same way for her. Even after knowing all that she still waits. And she'll keep waiting. Because she knows what she feels is real. She doesn't care about the distance cause she trusts you already. She's patient cause she knows if she ever got a chance all that time would have been worth it. every second she waited.
Everytime that you talk to her you'd make her day,no matter how short the conversation was. She doesn't want to lose you. She tells you she tried moving on,tried forgetting about you. But it only made her miss you.
She knew she lost a chance,but everybody deserves a second.
What would you do,if a girl admit all this to you. It took her a lot of guts to tell you. I'm just so awfully curious about what a guy would think.
If a girl admits to you just how much you mean to her,and that you're all she thinks about every night before she falls asleep. That everything she does reminds her of you. Every song she listens to makes her smile with the thought of you in mind. And that she's been waiting six months for you to actually notice her.
Even though she knows you're way out of her league,and she knows you'll probably never feel the same way for her. Even after knowing all that she still waits. And she'll keep waiting. Because she knows what she feels is real. She doesn't care about the distance cause she trusts you already. She's patient cause she knows if she ever got a chance all that time would have been worth it. every second she waited.
Everytime that you talk to her you'd make her day,no matter how short the conversation was. She doesn't want to lose you. She tells you she tried moving on,tried forgetting about you. But it only made her miss you.
She knew she lost a chance,but everybody deserves a second.
What would you do,if a girl admit all this to you. It took her a lot of guts to tell you. I'm just so awfully curious about what a guy would think.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
The Ark
Its been five months since what happened. Five months and I still feel this way.
I hardly know you enough to even feel this way,but I do. And as much as I've tired to stop myself I just can't. Its pretty fucking unbelievable.
And for those who do know about what I'm talking about,most of you would just criticize me.
But you only criticize me from what you see. Ever since I was a kid I always had a hard time finding friends who were true. All I ever got were two faced people. And I always reminded myself to keep my distance from people only cause I didn't like losing them once I trusted them. Its an upsetting feeling when it does happen. After primary school I sort of stopped being social,I kept the friends I had since I was in Primary. They know me well enough and I trust them. Till this day.
People started to think I was arrogant and pretty much full of myself. Their assumptions made me feel even more out of place.
I only started socializing more when I was fifteen,and even then people still backstabbed me. Maybe I'm too nice,or maybe people are just nasty. Its funny how even thou I'm friendly I still consider myself socially awkward. I guess its cause I never really tore down that wall I put between myself and people.
But with you it was so easy. too easy. I never knew about you,thou I've seen your name on twitter accounts but it honestly never bothered me to find out. Till that night five months ago,when you mentioned me in a couple of your tweets. And what happen after. Talking to you was easy,I felt safe. Safe enough to tear down that wall I surrounded myself with all these years. I never expected anybody to have that much impact on me in the slightest bit of time. But you did.
I couldn't care for who you were known to be by society,I wasn't interested in getting to know you that way. I still do want to get to know. Starting from scratch. Even if it means I have to push aside all feelings,if given the chance I would do exactly that. Maybe I've been given that chance,its seems pretty cloudy still. So I'm watching my step with every word I say. I don't want to lose you again. I couldn't possibly bare it.
Its odd,even after I found out the truth about everything I still think about you every night before I fall asleep. I was angry,very. Sad too,sad to have been so blind. That I actually believed it was that perfect especially with someone like you. But a couple of months past by and I got tired of being angry. I got tired of trying to make myself hate you,when I knew I couldn't. You told me if I knew I'd hate you. Well I tired hating you,I really did try my hardest. But I can't.
Right up till this day,you're all I think about every night. You're the reason why I can't sleep. Why I feel so complete that I've met you yet so very much empty at the same time. How is it possible that someone could possibly feel something this strong and yet the other person feels something entirely different. I guess thats the tricky part. You never really know how that person feels about you.
I don't love easily,too like someone perhaps. But too genuinely fall in love isn't rare for someone like me. Maybe once even then it wasn't easy. But I got my heart broken,and ever since then I just didn't careless. Till I met you,till you tore down that big ass wall I've been hiding myself in for years. I hate myself for letting you do that. But at the same time I don't think it was something I had control of. I met you for a reason.
Maybe sometimes people need to give things a try before coming to a conclusion that it can't be. I didn't get that chance. And I try not to build expectations but its terribly hard. In spite of what I want,I'm very much afraid of disappointing you. People often ask me what it is that gets my attention when it comes to a person,and I've always stood by this and for me its their smile. A smile can tell you a lot about a person. As to how genuine it is,and you have a great smile. You smile with your eyes.
I know for a fact that a lot of people like you for all the most obvious reasons. And I know I don't because I didn't know you before hand. And I was never curious about who you were till you came into my life and actually made an impact. For the most obvious reasons girls liked you was just luck on my side of the story. Personality and confidence was what really got me hooked. Not everybody has a great personality and not everyone has confidence and such self reassurance.
I just thought you should know that. Whether you're reading this or not. I could write a whole book. This post is long enough. And talking about this just makes me miss you even more. I'll stop here and keep the rest for if I ever get the chance to talk to you in person. And just the thought of that makes me smile (:
I wrote this post while playing Something about us by Daft Punk repeatedly. It always reminds me of you. Ever since that night when I first played it and you asked me why I was playing cheesy background porno music. haha. But you changed it all when you told me you were having a moment. Wether it was the truth or a lie this song will always remind me of how happy I was that night. Took me two months before I could actually even listen to it without bursting into tears.
I hardly know you enough to even feel this way,but I do. And as much as I've tired to stop myself I just can't. Its pretty fucking unbelievable.
And for those who do know about what I'm talking about,most of you would just criticize me.
But you only criticize me from what you see. Ever since I was a kid I always had a hard time finding friends who were true. All I ever got were two faced people. And I always reminded myself to keep my distance from people only cause I didn't like losing them once I trusted them. Its an upsetting feeling when it does happen. After primary school I sort of stopped being social,I kept the friends I had since I was in Primary. They know me well enough and I trust them. Till this day.
People started to think I was arrogant and pretty much full of myself. Their assumptions made me feel even more out of place.
I only started socializing more when I was fifteen,and even then people still backstabbed me. Maybe I'm too nice,or maybe people are just nasty. Its funny how even thou I'm friendly I still consider myself socially awkward. I guess its cause I never really tore down that wall I put between myself and people.
But with you it was so easy. too easy. I never knew about you,thou I've seen your name on twitter accounts but it honestly never bothered me to find out. Till that night five months ago,when you mentioned me in a couple of your tweets. And what happen after. Talking to you was easy,I felt safe. Safe enough to tear down that wall I surrounded myself with all these years. I never expected anybody to have that much impact on me in the slightest bit of time. But you did.
I couldn't care for who you were known to be by society,I wasn't interested in getting to know you that way. I still do want to get to know. Starting from scratch. Even if it means I have to push aside all feelings,if given the chance I would do exactly that. Maybe I've been given that chance,its seems pretty cloudy still. So I'm watching my step with every word I say. I don't want to lose you again. I couldn't possibly bare it.
Its odd,even after I found out the truth about everything I still think about you every night before I fall asleep. I was angry,very. Sad too,sad to have been so blind. That I actually believed it was that perfect especially with someone like you. But a couple of months past by and I got tired of being angry. I got tired of trying to make myself hate you,when I knew I couldn't. You told me if I knew I'd hate you. Well I tired hating you,I really did try my hardest. But I can't.
Right up till this day,you're all I think about every night. You're the reason why I can't sleep. Why I feel so complete that I've met you yet so very much empty at the same time. How is it possible that someone could possibly feel something this strong and yet the other person feels something entirely different. I guess thats the tricky part. You never really know how that person feels about you.
I don't love easily,too like someone perhaps. But too genuinely fall in love isn't rare for someone like me. Maybe once even then it wasn't easy. But I got my heart broken,and ever since then I just didn't careless. Till I met you,till you tore down that big ass wall I've been hiding myself in for years. I hate myself for letting you do that. But at the same time I don't think it was something I had control of. I met you for a reason.
Maybe sometimes people need to give things a try before coming to a conclusion that it can't be. I didn't get that chance. And I try not to build expectations but its terribly hard. In spite of what I want,I'm very much afraid of disappointing you. People often ask me what it is that gets my attention when it comes to a person,and I've always stood by this and for me its their smile. A smile can tell you a lot about a person. As to how genuine it is,and you have a great smile. You smile with your eyes.
I know for a fact that a lot of people like you for all the most obvious reasons. And I know I don't because I didn't know you before hand. And I was never curious about who you were till you came into my life and actually made an impact. For the most obvious reasons girls liked you was just luck on my side of the story. Personality and confidence was what really got me hooked. Not everybody has a great personality and not everyone has confidence and such self reassurance.
I just thought you should know that. Whether you're reading this or not. I could write a whole book. This post is long enough. And talking about this just makes me miss you even more. I'll stop here and keep the rest for if I ever get the chance to talk to you in person. And just the thought of that makes me smile (:
I wrote this post while playing Something about us by Daft Punk repeatedly. It always reminds me of you. Ever since that night when I first played it and you asked me why I was playing cheesy background porno music. haha. But you changed it all when you told me you were having a moment. Wether it was the truth or a lie this song will always remind me of how happy I was that night. Took me two months before I could actually even listen to it without bursting into tears.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
l'avenir
I realized I haven't got much time to think about what I want to do with the rest of my life after High school. So today I listed down my options,there aren't that many but most of it come from my interest or simply because its what my studies seem to tell me what I'm capable of doing. Which I honestly don't really believe in.
I've always wanted to open up my own Coffee Shop. Not a franchise. But something I build from scratch. And of course like any other business it will take time and effort but I'm more then willing to sacrifice my time for an Imagination put into reality. After all I've only got one life to live. Funny how I've got a rough idea of how it would look like.
Second would be,piloting. Ever since I was a kid I loved going to the Airport. And there's always that spot where its just a huge open window and all you see are the planes taking off,I loved that part of the airport the most. I loved the announcement tone they'd play before making the announcement. I loved getting into an aircraft,I'd always have dibs on the window seat just so I could see how the plane took off and how high above I was from land. It never failed to excite me each time I heard the "fastened seatbelt" sign go on. And turbulence always made me curious,sometimes I'd be frightened but only to a point of curiosity and the eager to find out what was going on inside the cockpit. Just typing this makes me smile. I love Traveling as well,as most of you already know. So its a bonus. Of course thou I'd have to do PPL or probably CPL abroad.
Last would be working in an Art Museum,I love art. Everything about art is just fascinating. From paintings to Sculptures right down to Music.
I can say safely that if I end up doing any of these three things in life I'll be very happy.
I don't want to live my life doing something just because it brings home a fat cheque. Like everybody else,I want to do something that makes me happy. No doubt do I want an easy life to live,but my main priority is to be Happy.
I've always wanted to open up my own Coffee Shop. Not a franchise. But something I build from scratch. And of course like any other business it will take time and effort but I'm more then willing to sacrifice my time for an Imagination put into reality. After all I've only got one life to live. Funny how I've got a rough idea of how it would look like.
Second would be,piloting. Ever since I was a kid I loved going to the Airport. And there's always that spot where its just a huge open window and all you see are the planes taking off,I loved that part of the airport the most. I loved the announcement tone they'd play before making the announcement. I loved getting into an aircraft,I'd always have dibs on the window seat just so I could see how the plane took off and how high above I was from land. It never failed to excite me each time I heard the "fastened seatbelt" sign go on. And turbulence always made me curious,sometimes I'd be frightened but only to a point of curiosity and the eager to find out what was going on inside the cockpit. Just typing this makes me smile. I love Traveling as well,as most of you already know. So its a bonus. Of course thou I'd have to do PPL or probably CPL abroad.
Last would be working in an Art Museum,I love art. Everything about art is just fascinating. From paintings to Sculptures right down to Music.
I can say safely that if I end up doing any of these three things in life I'll be very happy.
I don't want to live my life doing something just because it brings home a fat cheque. Like everybody else,I want to do something that makes me happy. No doubt do I want an easy life to live,but my main priority is to be Happy.
Saturday, July 2, 2011
meows
Hey guys I'd really appreciate it if you would vote for me! It only takes five minutes,and you guys can vote once everyday through out the whole competition!
Your vote counts! meow <3
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